July was a super-duper month on the tables. Without hitting any particularly big scores, I grinded out my best month to date, crossing the 5-figure mark for only the fourth time. The reason? I feasted the $69 45-player games to the tune of $8K in just 160 games. Michelle also enjoyed a fantastic month, a $1600 first place finish in a 900 player $10KO propelling her to her second-best month to date.
August has so far been a smidge less than super-duper. My worst day ever on August 17th has been compounded by two further losing days. I am currently down $3500 for the month and am staring down the barrel of my first negative month since May 2007. Bizarrely, I'm handling it fine. Don't get me wrong, my wall has been punched more than a few times and I have indulged in several sweary streams of consciousness but beyond my immediate outbursts, I can honestly say that I have not let the bad run dampen my spirits. The sessions end and I don't dwell on them. The bad runs are meant to happen and I know I was due one after three outstanding back-to-back months. Longterm, you get what you deserve in poker. Your expectation is dictated by your quality of play. The amount of money you will make is, in a sense, pre-destined. I have definitely run above expectation recently so this is just the poker gods doing some course-correcting.
My mission for the next 10 days is simple. Get back into the Black! The three things that will help to make this happen are as follows:
1. Play well
2. Be extra-vigilant with regard to bankroll management
3. Do not let Dr Fill influence my decisions
The most important of these is obviously 3. So far in the last two weeks, I have turned to Fill in a couple of key moments, moments of extreme difficulty, moments where the difference between the right and wrong decision were several hundreds of dollars. In each of these moments, he has told me what he would do. In each of these moments, I have asked him for a reason. In each of these moments, he has given compelling reasons, reasons like:
"I'm not good enough to fold there"
"I go all-in there because there's a chance I'm winning"
"I call there because I'm a donk"
In each of these moments, I did what he suggested and in each of these moments, I lost. On reflection, they weren't exactly airtight arguments.
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